Check in once

check in once,

check in twice.

feel extremely bored.

need a girl….

check in

Explanation

The last two are the draft I forgot to publish. So time is a bit wrong.

I think I am gonna keep typing I until I want to study. This is another experiment. I don’t feel like studying, and that’s ok. I need to until this sensation disappear.

I kind of remembered what my mom and my grandpa’s generations are doing. They have nothing. For my mom, the only entertainment she has is doing math problem. And she loves it.

Now she has wechat, so she begin to look at wechat after night. puaaaaaaa.

I tell Damond I will stop stalking people on facebook. I thought texting is kind of way to have fun but boi it’s really distracting. I need to stop. And any form of internet excepting wrting.

today’s track

wake up at 11:30. but so far so good.

my teacher asked me to be mindful during you do something routinely, so I decided to be mindful right now.

no pornography and finish all the work that’s what my friend and I promised.

I like my meditation class and the teacher is really good. I really like her. Except seeing several Facebook, I feel I am doing good right now.

 

talked to friend

talked to a friend

hear a joke from teacher

finish my homework

My thought

Everything past is past. It should not affect your life now. Moving on is important.

I am glad Shen and I has the agreement. I will see how it goes.

 

Final and Internet

There is another final coming. I should be studying but again, but I kind of getting tired again. Everything is repeating. I need to jump out of this circle.

This quarter is kind of hell. Especially my math 309. I am glad I finish that huge chunk of lecture. Toward the end it’s just the pure torture.

I guess those days are the most crucial in terms of your grade. I will make sure I studied hard.

Talking about the Internet, I first thought meditation is everything that can stop you from youtube, Facebook, soccer,, news, porn but it’s not that easy. Sometime I stop watching one category but can never fully stop watching others. Once I succeed by reading books but it just take too long and it is really difficult(well, I maybe do this again).

Now I am listening music and typing my thought here. Maybe my children can see what I am typing here. And they will see what kind of person their dad is. I hope I will leave the good impression.

 

Internet

As an electrical engineer, you can never avoid internet. This is true, but at the same time, I just feel I was inflicted by boredom. When does learning become so painful? I don’t know. Before knowing what is physics, I always think I can be a genius and always buying a lot of science book. But now I am sophomore, and feel I get to know about what people are doing in the science major. I can’t say I am passionate about it now. I really don’t know about my future.

Internet has so many shitty information that you don’t need to know. Even Donald Trump won’t affect me. The biggest factor that affect your life is yourself, not Donald Trump. Cheer up Kuo!

 

 

I am extremely bored now.

I know sometime I think the word would be interesting, but I am extremely bored now. Maybe I need to start my meditation right now.

The meditation actually helps me to sleep. I feel this is really a great tool to experiment with my brain. The teacher is soothing.

Okay, I feel better. I think even thinking about meditation itself makes me feel better compare to watching youtube. Holy shit. You gotta see onion’s 5 things to know about Zuckerberg. Maybe meditation helps a lot.

 

Back from Meditation

It was great, and the teacher reminded me aunt Nozaki. She has a soothing tone and gave me a really relaxing experience that made me fall asleep while I am doing my first meditation. I am going to the bed now. let’s see each other tomorrow.

today: wake up 5:18, yesterday sleep: 22:53

Monday!

It’s Monday! I always hope for the weekend but in the end I feel weekend is draining my energy. Let me write down this: I will not waste my time again next weekend.

I look at the Facebook twice today. Email multiple times and vox once. Started reading Christmas Carroll. (which is kind of picking up again).

It’s been a nonstop since the morning. I wake up in 5:30 and till now. I don’t know if I can insist like that everyday, but I am sure I will be ok as long as I write the good diary and check myself constantly.

I am kind of worrying about what my parents side happening. It is bad that my dad making so much trouble.

I will go to meditation class in the afternoon. Hope everything goes well. May god bless my family and me.

First blog post

Hi, I am an international student who is studying in the US. I started my blog and call the address besuccessblog because I want to be successful. I am still learning English and writing a blog is a good way to improve my writing.  Furthermore, I like to put some of my thought daily and make sure my behavior is what I expected. To be honest, it is so hard for me to stop watching soccer, useless website and etc. I will keep writing on my philosophical thought and start my intellectual conversation with you.